I though....

That i was supposed to be using this blog site for school purposes,but i guess not.My teacher Adam hasn't told us to do anything with this site any more so ill guess ill just use it for my personal stuff. I'm pretty sure no ones gonna read this and ill just be blogging bull shit and none sense since i have got nothing better to do.Fuck man i feel like i have been sober way to long. I get tempted sometimes to go back to my old ways. although Luis sometimes makes me think that its not the best idea.Although i also dont see what the big deal with canvas is .My senior year is also coming to an end as well, god damn how the years go by so fast and im starting to feel a little worried, I just want to know that by the end of the school year ill have some place to go. My biggest fear in life is not only that a giant meteor will come down any time soon or that ill live long enough to see the effects of what we humans have done to this planet ,but that ill never get anything accomplished.
I wanna be able to go to school fulfill my long time dream of become involved with forensics and perform autopsy's on human body's and shit like that, maybe settle down with Luis and i don't know. Also learning guitar and piano much better by the time Im at leas 25. life goes by way too quick and each day counts, if you sit there and do nothing, you have wasted time on doing nothing when you could have been doing somethingvery useful with your time. Truth is i hate to admit it but thats me sometimes, i sit at home not do anything but talk with luis or go online and talk with him when i could be doing something way more useful, and its not that hes in the way or anything i just feel like i could use my time more wisely . I'm young and have my whole life ahead of me and if i don't act quickly now ill never accomplish those two main goals that i have had since middle school.And looking back now its gone way to fats for me to be able to control it


i guess this is my first personal post since i get lazy writing in my diary. ill do it here instead

tootles?

Da Vinci as my date

If i had the opportunity to have dinner with anybody in this world ,even if its for a couple of hours it would definitely have to be Leonardo Da Vinci. No other characters or celebrities in this world could ever measure up to him. Our conversation as I imagine would be pretty intense. I would start off by asking him about his most renown paintings and what their meaning and purposes were.I was just watching a biography of him a couple of months ago and it was rumored that his most famous painting of Mona Lisa had a dark meaning behind it ,like mass destruction i wasn't really sure about it but most of his paintings had some sort of significance that i found really interesting.I would ask about his inventions and what was going through is head or what made him think.This was a man with absolute talent ,no doubt about it. No other musician ,doctor ,teacher ,whoever it is would level up to him.There would be just so many questions i wouldn't know where to start.This guy is amazing

My superpowers

If i were to be given just one super power in this word it would defiantly be the ability to go back and forth into time. No other super powers that people can think of is better than time travel. Seeing how man kind has evolved and how everything started, exploring our ancestors past , finding out the truth of what really happened, seeking into the future, finding out if mystical creatures did in fact exist, that would be very interesting .

Rosas world

The world would not be what it is today if i could change just one or a couple of things about it.

I would regulate everything but the most important thing i would do is due everything that i have in my power to not eliminate but reduce global warming. We are part of the earth we belong to it ,so it should be the first thing to come before anything.From my perspective it should come first before anything else.Without this earth the people would not matter nothing else would mater, gangs ,financial difficulties, world hunger,

love?

Some people may not be any experts on love love is just a feeling not a matter of time before you feel it. But is it really love that your feeling?People often confuse love with lust. When a person often thinks about their significant other they might just want some sort of sexual desire and because they think about it most of the time they might confuse that for "love" when in reality its just lust their feeling. This mostly happens with young adults who think they are in love , Their are many cases out there where young adults seem to last a life time , that proves that love is int always blind and that what they feel really is love. Though love can only be defined in your own perspective. What i would consider true love would be honesty, admitting your mistakes cause there's never gonna be a prefect relationship, friendship, and most importantly communication.

Trapped

Trapped can be defined in many different ways.

In my situation i felt trapped in many different ways. I felt trapped in an ambition i couldn't let go of, i felt trapped among my own home, i felt trapped in my own school work procrastinating day after day telling myself that i would would finish my assignments later and wouldent.I had trapped my self in guilt, doing things i wasn't supposed to knowing that they were wrong and it was not what i was taught to do but still did anyways cause i did not care about it at that moment. Every weekend i would go hang out with one of my so called "best friend" and well you already know the rest. After a couple of weekends of doing what i was doing it became an everyday thing. A couple of hits before i went off to school,sometimes in between periods or during class. Then when my parents went off to run and errand id quickly do it before they came and just enjoy it and feel so happy and stuck. I felt trapped like i couldn't go a day without it cause it brought me a weird feeling of emptiness ,like someone craving a candy they cant get a hold of at the moment. I really didn't think much of the consequences that would happen later on, and little did i know that it would change my life drastically. Theres more to that story my consequences were paying a fine and disappointing my parents.I felt so guilty my mom was so disappointment and thoguh i needed help. I told myself that was not true,though it could have been but with the help of my dearest friend i slowly over came it

Adam

is awesome
and a cool English teacher